Everything's new.
Everything's changing.
I can't keep up.
I feel like I'm losing.
Desperation kicks in.
Why again?
It's all happening again.
Again the ugly duckling.
Again alone and defenseless.
How can I go on?
How can I keep doing this...?
My heart hurts.
My blood boils.
My face goes warm.
I can't imagine doing this all over.
Jesus.
Help me...
