Thursday, January 6, 2011

The Traveler

“He’s a monster,”
They told me.
“He’s dangerous!”
They whisper.
This boy…
He blew into town on a spring breeze.
He says he doesn’t know
Anything.
Who is he?
The golden haired stranger…
Where did he come from?
That village in the mountains…
Why him?
A hero…
Why here?
This quiet town…
Why me?
This strange girl…

Through My Eyes

Every day when I wake up,
I risk my life for the ones I love.
It’s hard sometimes…
To watch my comrades fall…

I pray so often,
I pray I will survive.
The Lord will help me,
So I won’t be so afraid!

I long to see my family:
The small town in Virginia
Where I grew up…
I bet so much has changed.

I fight so hard…
And not just for America,
I’ve my own reasons, as well…
I want to prove to everyone and myself
That I can be strong!
But all I want now,
Is to make it home.

Friday, December 3, 2010

I Love My Two Darlings

Things That Never Change

  1. My height
  2. My awkwardness
  3. Feeling like no one really understands
  4. Feeling  like I’m different
  5. Wanting to help those two feel better when I know I can’t
  6. My love for My Chemical Romance
  7. Those nights I spent with him
  8. My weird ideas
  9. My belief in cryptids
  10. My hopes to become a novelist
  11. How perfect I feel in his arms
  12. How beautiful he makes me feel
  13. How human beings never cease to amaze me (for better or worse)
  14. My love for him
  15. My love for her

(5, 14, and 15.)

You never truly understand
Love
Until you meet a person who
Amazes you
You’ve never met a girl like her
You’ve never met a guy like him
In many ways they are
Alike
I love them
In many ways they are different
Very different pains
I wish I could heal their wounds
Hers inflicted by Man
His inflicted by Mind
I love my two
A man
A woman
Is love so strict,
I cannot love without lust?
He has my love
She has my love
I want to marry him
I want to safeguard her
I love my two darlings

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

She Says She Loves Him

Screaming and screaming
My heart’s going to burst
Screaming and screaming
Vile lust
Silence and silence
She says not to tell
Silence and silence
I just want to yell
Burning and burning
Her blood on the floor
Burning and burning
He comes for her once more

She says she loves him
His damage is grim

Monday, November 15, 2010

Psychotic

“I’m not psychotic. I just like psychotic things.” –Gerard Way

How macabre is my mind
Just like a grizzly nightmare
Here, sanity is hard to find

I sit alone and bide my time
I find myself just sitting there
How macabre is my mind

Sometimes I feel colorblind
Sometimes I can’t find any air
Here, sanity is hard to find

All my thoughts are intertwined
Sometimes it all too much to bear
How macabre is my mind

But I will come out redefined
As everyone likes to stare
Here, sanity is hard to find

I am a jewel, now refined
But be careful--beware
How macabre is my mind
Here, sanity is hard to find

Friday, November 12, 2010

When Life Sets You Free

Free is never being told you have to do your hair a certain way
Free is never being told you’re not normal
Free is being able to run wildly through the woods—going nowhere in particular
Free is your first sip of dirty creek water—the best kind
Free is being wrapped in the arms of the lover your parents hate
Free is walking barefoot through the tall grass
Free is never being told “Be home by 10!”
Free is speeding down the highway wit three friends you just made
Free is that feeling of loneliness you feel your first night alone
Free is working part-time trying to save for an apartment
Free is $40,000 a year for classes you’re now failing
Free is changing your major five times
Free is falling in love with someone ad not caring what your Mom might say
Free is being content living off of blue-box macaroni and cup ramen
Free is making decisions for yourself for once
Free is figuring out who you really are
Free is having nothing yet, but having everything now

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Flying to Feel Alive

Against my better judgment
I found myself in that car.
We didn’t care about crashing.
We didn’t care about police.
We were just flying down the highway.
It felt like we were flying.

In that time of flying,
I must have lost all judgement.
Going 80 down the highway
In a little bullet car.
We never did see any police.
There was no sign of crashing.

I wasn’t until later I even thought about crashing.
All I felt was flying
Past the trees and grazing deer, never fearing the police.
Now there was no time for silly judgement
Only laugher filled that tiny car.
I felt alive on that dark highway.

It was only us ripping down that highway.
There was no way we’d end up crashing.
In that moment, the whole world was that car.
Who knew that, still tires to the asphalt, I could be flying?
That’s something that takes skewed judgement.
But we would be judged, if only by the police.

Who are these police?
Just Nazis of the highway.
And that is my judgement.
If we had ended up crashing,
Would we had been sent flying
Through the glass of that little black car?

Just change gears again; trust the car.
Nothing can stop us, not the police.
I want to stay flying
Down that dark old highway
With no thought of crashing.
No second thought; no mortal judgement.

It takes all your judgement driving that car.
Crashing never entered our thoughts as we looked out for police.
We were plowing down that highway– flying.